Anniversary

Its 5 years since we discovered Alan had CF, and i remember it like it was yesterday.It shook our world and left us devastated and in disbelief, we had so many questions we wanted to ask the main one was why us? why Alan what had we done so bad that we deserved this? I still remember these feelings like it was yesterday and even now sometimes i ask the same question especially when i see Alan in pain.
But 5 years on the difference in Alan is clear to see, before he was diagnosed he was a very clingy, snotty, grumpy little man who when he had a dirty nappy we couldn't believe what a nappy could hold, to now a independent, funny loving boy who has got the best nature and copes remarkably with all he has had to deal with I'm his short life.
I feel blessed to be his mummy and know he was gifted to us for a reason and the joy he brings us is unbelievable.We tried to conceive after Amy and it wouldn't happen, we visited the Dr and he prescribed fertility treatment for us but even that didn't work, they discovered i had polysistic ovary syndrome, we were told we would be very unlikely to conceive so for 7 years we were convinced our family was complete. Only to discover after being admitted to hospital with what they thought was a kidney stone, we were pregnant, we were overjoyed and a little shocked!
Alan is a miracle that we never take for granted.
I do get down sometimes especially at this time when its his anniversary time ,but, we take every day as it comes and count our blessings we have him in our life.